crazy messed up world

It has been almost 3 months since I posted. 3 months of mundane every day crazy. Of toddlers and preschoolers and trying to be supermom & superwife while still be supercareer girl all at the same time. Mainly managing to be decent at all three. I think there is a real post brewing away once I seem to get some time to think it out. What has me stuck right now is an overwhelming fear and sadness bought on by this week and months events. Colorado. New Jersey. Pennsylvania. New York. 5 babies lost. 4 sets of devastated parents. 4 times we are reminded there is evil all around us and danger in the most trusted places. Innocent lives barely begun and lost for no reason. This is a year of tragedy. My friend's daughter. my Nancy. Potentially my father in law. 5 sweet babies and countless more not in the news. It is enough to make you want to hide your head in the sand. Ti take those you love and try to hide them away as far from humanity (or the lack thereof) as you can. We live in a city where I have heard sirens multiple times each night these last 2 weeks. It makes me think the worlds gone mad. And I just want to step off and find a newer calmer more safe and peaceful one. I want the fairy tale world where sweet princesses wake up to happily ever after and young men are kind and gallant protectors.