Monday, May 31, 2010

mobile

it has happened- pumpkin has gone from a few toddling steps here & there to completely & utterly walking. in the span of a few days. while i am loving this- it makes me miss the little baby that is gone forever. just a bit. it is hard to believe that in only 15 months her babyhood is gone. she is now a toddler- complete with mini tantrums as she gets frustrated about things. it is wonderful and it is hard. how to explain things to her? we try our best but we are already seeing that she is stubborn just like her parents- i was a quietly stubborn kid- sweet & polite, but determined to do things my own way & no one could tell me the 'right' way to do things. i needed to find out myself.
the hubs was/is loudly stubborn. he will research the hell out of something, but once he has decided which way is the 'right' way- he will argue till he passes out (not really an exaggeration- he did used to hold his breath until blue & passed out as a child during tantrums- oh boy!)
so seeing this particular trait is not surprising at all, but daunting in how to deal with it from the other side. and a good mirror as well. the things we know we could do better & work on- we would like to teach her & that in turn helps us work on those things. make sense?

in other news there is no more news- still frustrated at my unpaid workload which isn't getting easier, still fat & frustrated at that. stress sucks and supporting a family on almost no money at all sucks a lot. trying to then eat healthy & relax so i can lose weight is almost impossible. why must the healthy food be so much more expensive? the hub & i are not poor eaters. our fridge is stocked with fresh produce & i would say that 80% of what we eat in a month is freshly prepared at home. crashing the car has taking a hit on our stomachs lately as well since the scramble meant less time to prepare home cooked meals & more crap being eaten. he has suggested we get up early & start running, but of course- then what do we do about our peacefully sleeping babe? something needs to change- and soon. i apparently can't count on my work stress going away anytime soon so i need to get it together where i can.

1 comment:

kate said...

Way to go, Pumpkin! I can't believe she's a full-on walker already!! That's amazing!

I worry often about what traits of mine these boys will display. I'm not the most patient person in the world, and yes, I really prefer to do things MY way (aka the RIGHT way...). Of course, I have to assume they'll be half-H, too, so there is always the chance that they will be patient, docile, extremely sensitive boys who are extremely polite... Yeah, sure!

It is harder to eat healthy on a budget. Even though fresh fruits, veggies, meats, etc. are *sometimes* less expensive, it still takes a lot out of you to prepare the meals, time-wise. It's frustrating sometimes, and frustration leads to stress, which is (at least for me) the biggest obstacle to weight loss. My body just doesn't respond well with all those stress hormones raging around my body. Sigh.