the business

over a month since my last post- eh? sounds about typical these days. so- what is new?
nothing really - same work insanity. a lot of travel (most recently to the big apple city which i was able to bring the fam to- more on that below) lots to do, not enough time to do it. i am scared for monday when i get into the office to 100 e-mails on tasks to complete. wish i had an intern!
the fam is good (mainly) pumpkin is amazing me daily with her comprehension and language skills. she is talking in complete sentences, is extremely compassionate & caring, but also very demanding and kind of bossy. she takes care of her brother & their bond is evident already- and so touching to me. right now she is taking a moment from building her block skyscrapers to get him his octopus toy and telling him- it's ok C--- I'm right here- melt...
the hub and i are trying to find our even keel. we are harsh with each other, careless with our feelings and words to protect the kids from bearing any of our sleep deprivation and stress. which isn't good. which results in epic fights like the one trying to get out the door and on the road for this work trip. which resulted in a horrifically stressed and embarrassing first day for me and a miserable one for him. which i will get to. we both need time and resources we don't have to destress. the holidays don't hep, extra medical bills don't help- little bear finally has the all-clear on his final ultrasound: kidneys are fine, no need to do anything except a follow up in one year as a cya- we are thrilled to pay for such a 'wasted' test to hear good news, but still... we have to pay another medical bill on top of the pile we are already trying to deal with. now i need all 4 wisdom teeth out- thought i could do 2 with just local & yank, but now it seems i need to be sleeping and surgically remove the last 2 as well. which i need to get in before christmas which means i will be recovering while traveling to see the family since i literally have no additional vacation days to take which also really sucks. but it's the difference between paying a $35 co-pay and a $1000 deductible. what other choice is there? ***which brings my question- little bear is still nursing, mainly at night and we do have to supplement him daytime, but i am trying to keep as much milk as possible in his diet. i am ok with the general- can pump & dump (though I hate to) for that day and he is covered, but the painkillers they will give me... is there a preferred between vic.odin & per.cese,ts? i will probably get the super mot.rin too and may end up just taking that as my pain threshold is pretty high, but figured i would put it out there for my 'experts' to answer! thanks!!!

so- my trip was interesting and i was very glad to be able to have my family with me as i am pretty sure due to the fact that i was only able to pump 2x in 3 days for a grand total of 3 ounces that i would have severely dropped off supply to perhaps the point of no return otherwise. it was pretty nice to come back to the hotel to them and to see my daughter's face light up seeing the tree and the light display at sa.ks and the craziness of that area in general- she is a city girl and we literally stopped people in their tracks with the combined cuteness of these 2 in the double stroller. but it is exhausting to navigate with 2 and just to find a bathroom to change them in- epic.
the day we arrived i was running late thanks to unannounced tunnel traffic and ended up having to run 3 blocks in the rain. after 2-1/2 hours in the car and a full cup of coffee. and have i mentioned i have a uterine prolapse? can anyone guess where this is going? yeah- very embarrassing to realize you have just peed yourself and must now meet not only your boss, but his boss and a group of people for a day full of showrooms & meetings. thank goodness for vanilla hand sanitizer and a fairly close restroom + a long coat. i am not ready to repeat that one again.