i am trying to get ready at the speed of light to get to my appointment a little early this morning. i have no idea how long it will take & it's only me & my coworker this week- so i don't want to leave her hanging. plus i want to hear the heartbeat early dammit!
i know it's silly of me, but what the hell- i am embracing it. i just can't bring myself to wear those damn pants until after today. i just want to hear that everything's okay & then i can maybe relax- just a little until the next thing has me freaked out! ;o) i definitely don't want to be a neurotic worrier my entire pregnancy. i have relaxed a little about a lot of different things. i think today has just been a long time coming (only a little IF pun intended) and after waiting 6 weeks instead of 4 between appointments has me antsy. i'll be back on schedule now- so hopefully this won't happen again!
of course- i felt like shit all day yesterday- which was perversely wonderful after feeling really good all weekend. i am a sick puppy, i really don't enjoy being nauseous & throwing up- it is my least favorite form of illness, but i am comforted by it right now. since i can't feel movement (& won't for a good number of weeks) this is what i have to say 'yes- it's real'.
i think i will try to record the heartbeat to my phone today to make that my reality touchstone- far less queasiness. plus the hub can't make it today & i know he wants to hear it too...
i'll be back tonight with an update- sorry for the long wait.
the hub didn't get home until late & he brings the computer with him. my appointment was great, very quick. blood pressure, labs & last ultrasound all looked fantastic. then we talked about the sequential screening- which i need to get scheduled asap! then she gave me the script for the 'big' ultrasound. then we got down to business. she warned me that it may take a while to find, but she found it in 30 seconds or so of looking. the most beautiful fast whooshing! i felt so relieved & happy & thrilled all in a moment. then it was over. i barely had time to let it sink in & it was gone. i didn't even get the heart rate, but that sucker was fast!
hopefully i get another peek at spring roll next week. i can wait to see in there again!
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I'm texting you right now for an update. I don't like waiting!
Well the day is about over (work day that is) Hopefully your Grinning through your nausea :D Cant wait to hear the results.
WOW this is going by fast - Isn't it!
Whoohoo! Glad you got some good wooshing in! Glad you're able to smile through the puke.
Hey - OT but did you realize we both got pregnant on our 20th cycle?
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