-first off- i'm a guest blogger! nancy asked for guests while she's on her trip & i have today. go check it out. (although i really don't think i am up to par with her usual entries!)
-i need to get pumpkin onto a new schedule. i've been up since about 5 am because of this (and other things). i love not having an iron clad schedule with her, but it looks like that time is about to end. she has gotten herself into a pretty decent schedule- but i need a new one
-because i am going back to work!!!! holy crap. i am still in shock- my old job called yesterday & told me they were ready for me as soon as i can come back. what???!!! i had braced myself for going through the holidays & starting at least my first extension on unemployment. i am shocked it's 'only' been 4-ish months. i'm going in today to iron out when i will start back since i do need time to get her squared away, but probably within this month!
-we are also going to be needing a second car i think. my city absolutely sucks for public transportation & the quickest way i could get to work still involves 1 bus (or getting dropped off by the hub in the am), 2 subways and either a 2nd bus or a 15 minute walk. oh- and would take an hour & a half on a good day. i hate to leave the hub & pumpkin home without a car- although it would be easier for him to arrange a ride if needed. plus i think my neighbor will be staying home with her 3 kids now...i am sensing a little bit of daddy day care playdate arranging & baby watch swapping/car borrowing arrangements in the future.
-i am a little freaked out over the hub staying home with her (per our original plan b). it's not that i don't trust him- but i guess a small part of me doesn't completely. i know he's amazing with her & does an awesome job. he has her all to himself every thursday morning & she is always super happy. but he never learned baby cpr. i don't even think he's ever taken her temperature. he plays rougher with her than i do. (not rough- she's still only 6 months!) he heats her cereal while i leave it cold- since she doesn't care either way. it's nothing to do with him or his abilities as a parent & everything to do with me & having to work through just a few (!) control issues. i'll get there!
-how am i going to go from being with her pretty much all day every day to only really seeing her 3-ish hours a day for 4 days a week? not rhetorical- how in the world do all the working mommies do it?! i know it's harder on me right now because i am going back later than most working moms. we've had much more time together & i really do cherish that. i also know that it is so much better on her to be able to go back to work now than having to wait even longer. the transition will be easier on her- especially since she's staying at home with daddy. i also know that the first week will probably be really hard- especially on me. but we'll all adjust & get through it- right? any tips & words of comfort on this are most appreciated!
-the hub & i are still going on our vacation which will probably put a kink in this whole 'new schedule' plan, but we need it now more than ever. going back to work means no vacation time for a long time (except of course for my little trip next month) and the whole turning 30 thing combined with 6 months of full time mommy + financial stress has made me craving some quiet recharging. especially now that it can be a celebration & a last quiet trip before going back!
so i have been awake for nearly 2 hours now- i woke up with her at 5am & am just too amped up to go back to sleep. i am nervous & excited. i really do love my job & i love(d) the firm i worked at. i am excited to go back & i missed it (and my coworkers) very much. but i am nervous about leaving her all day. i hope she does all right. and the hub does all right. oh- yeah- and I do all right!
all i know is i better get a ton of pictures everyday- i need my daily fixes of this (she is 1 day shy of 6 months old- where did it go?!):
5 comments:
Wow! That is awesome news, Jenn! I can't believe this has worked out for you. Fantastic.
It will be a hard transition for you, I'm sure, but you'll figure it out in due time. Most moms seem to find some sort of balance, and with you knowing that your child is in the capable hands of your husband (even though he doesn't do things your way, aka the RIGHT way!) may make it easier than knowing that you were leaving your child with a stranger.
Yay! I'm just so happy for you!
Yay on getting your job back! All I can say about leaving your little one is that you will be in far more need of comfort than her. My baby LOVES daycare, looks in longingly whenever we wander past on the weekends, and I also have wonderful memories of my babysitters/daycare/long playdates while my mom worked (I know you're not starting daycare yet, but it sounds like that's the next step when your husband goes back to work full-time). I hope it's a smooth transition for you.
Hooray for going back to work. I'm sure it seems sudden but at least it will help on the financial front.
Personally, I much prefer going to work. Sure there are days that I'm pretty jealous of Jeramy and Jillian hanging out at home together. But in reality, I often find myself burnt out after a weekend of chasing Jillian around. Oh and all those little things, I don't even pay attention to these days. As long as we're all healthy and happy. Being a working mom has definitely forced me to be a more relaxed mom.
Oh that is great news!! Congrats!!
Wow! Congrats! I can see how you would have mixed feelings, but this eliminates a large portion of your financial worries. Right?
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