two years

this is the two year anniversary of the day our dream started coming true. first positive pee stick, first beta- congratulations! miracles happen sometimes and mine is fast asleep snuggled with her blanky and her puppy doll upstairs. my heart is overflowing every night to come home to her little face lighting up to see me. and my world is complete when i get sloppy baby kisses and squeezing hugs.

and ironically enough- af shows up tonight in a twist i never saw coming... the infertile nervous that she might not get her period. don't get me wrong- if we are ever lucky enough to get that surprise bfp we will be overjoyed- but right this second in our lives it would be extremely difficult. i want pumpkin to have more time as the baby first off. and i know that financially we would end up stuck at a level i am scared to be in. we would always do everything we had to to make it work- but i just want a little breathing room before that happens! so- the hubs and i will be discussing the b-word...