if i tell you i'll have to kill you

serving on a jury is NOTHING like you expect if the only experience you were basing said expectation on was law oriented television. it is a lot of hurry up & wait. we finished out the case in 2 whole days, but it really should have only taken one. as we started to deliberate- one of us asked, how many decided after hearing only the plaintiff's? we all raised our hands. we decided for the defendent. it's a civil case- and it was very obvious to all of us that the plaintiff was only trying to get some money, not recoup from pain & suffering. and the defendent now can have their countersuit & hopefully get their defense fees back. the case never should have made it to a full jury trial- it was pretty obvious what happened & that the plaintiff's were lying about multiple things. oh well- i got three days off work (not that part of me wouldn't have rather been at work all that time anyway!) and i met some very interesting people. let's just say- that whole cross section of the population thing was evident in my jury. there was someone of almost every race, education, income, & a lot of personality! it was interesting!

on to better things- here is the fabulous package from the lovely io :

first off- 6 skeins of funky red yarn, i already have a thought what i will make- hint- it starts with an s & ends with a carf. (they're sitting on my 2nd 2ww project- the little blanket that may be a throw or may be a gift...)

then this box of lemonh.eads- check out the awesome little tin! (unfortunately the hub got to them before i could & they are but a memory of yummy hanging in his tummy- but he really enjoyed them so i guess that's okay...)

there's some iron on t-shirt transfer paper that you can print from your laserjet printer... i am brewing a few ideas on this as well!

a cute little pack of playing cards (that i must confess on first glance in the package appeared to be something much much naughtier to me! i guess i just have a dirty mind)

an awesome pink indy fire dept tee- it's just this side of too big so it will hopefully turn into a cute belly shirt, ahem wishful thinking here.

and finally the icing on the top of this distraction cake- a gorgeous portfolio stuffed with pr.ismacolors & a pad & tons of little pockets all over... i am so stoked about this one & i don't know how she knew i could use such a wonderful gift! but i am touched & warmed to the bottom of my heart that she decided to send me such a thoughtful gift pack!

i am so excited & touched & feel so warm & fuzzy right now. it really does make my wait more than bearable. speaking of which- i thought i had decided to test tomorrow, but if i do i think it won't be until evening. all signs seem to point to my period not showing up tomorrow to crash the party, but i tend to have a 13 day lp. sometimes 12 sometimes 14, but i at least want to wait until a short lp is safely behind me. also- a very good point was made to me today- if i test in the morning- even if it is a positive (please, please, please, please) i will have to basically shout it to my sleeping, grumpy husband as i run out the door to work. then i can sit at my desk & either try not to cry or to keep my shit eating grin from making my coworkers think i've gone off the deep end. at least if i wait until i get home tomorrow i can celebrate or commiserate with the hub. he even has my favorite organic microbrew on hand just in case. (okay- the neighbor gave it to him because he drinks nothing but coor.s light & there will be some left if i need it- it has been hard to see him enjoying my delicious amber ale & not be able to have any, but the second i think about giving in & having a sip- i imaging how i will reproach myself if this doesn't work out, or if it does but something happens- i'd rather just wait until i know i can't torture myself) so- by this time tomorrow i may have an update, but i am playing it by ear- it depends on so many whims & feelings from the day.

like today- i had to run to pee about 7 times during the day today- a bit much even for the one kidney wonder. and the little minor cramps & twinges have me convinced i will see a second line finally. but my boobs aren't sore a bit, and i have felt all these things before. so i would rather wait it out & be at least comfortable with when i take the test & the fact that the hub gets to be there with & for me. he's been so involved & emotionally invested in this cycle- even more that i have been i think. i feel like i owe it to him to be able to just be together after we find out if this worked or not...