irony

i don't put much stock into horoscopes & this is why- todays:

You will reach an important milestone today, and you will feel awfully proud of yourself. But when it comes to celebrating this momentous event, you need to know your limits -- financial, emotional and physical. Go for a more restrained approach -- opt for a nice dinner out or a spiffy new pair of shoes, but don't book any first-class flights or start shopping for a sports car! The focus should be on you and your accomplishments, not on ostentatiously crowing about what you've achieved. -

WTF???

i am supposed to be celebrating today- but instead i am crushed. my husband is crushed. i know i'll get over it & back into the game- but i don't want to go past trying for 7 months. don't get me wrong- i know that 7 months is NOTHING. every statistic says that normal healthy couples with perfect timing can take a year or more- it doesn't make it more fun to go through or any easier. i don't want to have this be the focus of my life anymore. unfortunately i can't just turn it off- it's too imortant to me, to us. the worst part is- i still am driving myself crazy thinking it could possibly be wrong. maybe's hurt more than no's.