Jackie is a punk

i love the Ramones- they make me happy.

i have to say that my hubby is the greatest. no matter how shitty of a day/week.minth/etc. i am having- he always makes me smile. even if it means running around the house dancing on tables- he will do it. only in the privacy of our home- but he still does it.

he makes the all the waiting slightly more bearable.


we did have a lot of long talks the past few days. about life in general & kids in specific. he is not too hot on getting a s/a. the only way i could even get him to consider it is by describing (in graphic detail) a few of the procedures used on women. he is also not too hot on IUI. no one ~wants~ that, but i am still not sure if it will be an option for us. of course i don't even want to think about all this- but i might as well start wrapping my brain around this stuff. i/we have already decided that IVF is not for us. we definitely can't afford it now- and when we could afford it i would probably rather go to adoption.

i am a list maker & an organizer. i like having all my options known & thought out well in advance. i am great at planning & can throw a party together quickly because i already have the recipes & decorations & have thought out what order i need to do everything in. he is not like this- he is spontaneous & makes decisions based on gut instincts & the emotions of the moment. we are a good mix because of this, but it makes it hard for me to try & plan (even though you never can plan life) our future options.