i am still waiting for af to show up. she is showing no signs of cooperating. this next cycle i can start temping again & even okp'ing. i just need this cycle to start. i got yet another bfn this morning. after waking up from a very vivid dream of poas & seeing a second line i woke up & had to go to the bathroom. i thought- why not, even though i was going to wait until tomorrow. lo & behold- no second line. granted- it was early, i was tired & i didn't wait the whole 2 minutes before getting frustrated & throwing it out. i really didn't have to. i am now down to a less than 1% chance that this is the month- but i am going on 2 days late. the only thing i can't help thinking- what if? that's why miss hope sucks- she pumps you full of what if's.
what if i didn't implant until monday when i felt these weird pulling pinching cramps? does that mean that not enough hcg would have built up by today? technically possible- highly improbable. but sure enough- miss hope stays right behind my ear whispering her evil little sweet nothings, goading me into believing in the impossible.
oh- and my friend & coworker is still waiting to have her baby- 2 days behind her due date- she may be induced today- so she will know before i do, but i am pretty sure af will wait to show up until she has her baby- bitter- but i bet you it's true...
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