well. now i just wait

today's temp was up a little, but i also slept in about an hour. the cramps, sore boobs, nipple tenderness are all still here- so much for the BFN making symptoms disappear. also, my internal signs (so to speak) are not showing that AF is coming soon, but she is a sneaky bitch. we have a baptism to go to today- so i will be bringing some back up & not be wearing white...

last night friends came over & watched Rm. 1408. If anyone hasn't seen it- it was interesting. i love love love john c.usak, but there was an additional plot twist that had me in tears. which was odd since it's a horror-thriller. it was about john's character's sick daughter- kind of heart wrenching & completely caught me off guard. then there's a horror twist that was so unexpected. overall the movie was okay, it had some cheesy horror stuff in it & not enough of the black thriller that i like. but not too bad for a saturday night with friends.

but the hanging out with friends part of the evening was fantastic! it was like a little time warp back to college (kind of). let's just say that the men made s.pam pizzas. they looked as disgusting as it sounds, but they ate them up. us girls had grown up grape juice (concord wine literally tastes like grape juice!) and regular pizzas. very relaxing.


* i just want to apologize to my friend M- yesterday you were trying to help me think positively & i was caught up in my bfn induced funk. i just want you to know that i appreciate every kind word & i am sorry i have been a bit of a shitty friend lately. i've been way focused on this cycle & my dread of hitting a year & i haven't been as good a friend as you have been to me. and knowing that you check out my blog & honestly truly care about all this stuff means the world to me. but in an effort to be a better friend- i will post it here instead of yet again steering all our conversations to my world. oh- and it will be a wonderful birthday. as long as we get cake! ;o)

you inspire me to be a better, less selfish person. thank you for your sympathetic ear & putting up with all my drama. i am working on making it less dramatic!