still sick, still waiting

still no word on the refi- except that all looks good. let's hope so because i am now in nerve wracking- if this doesn't happen soon i am completely screwed territory. sleepless nights have commenced. (this may be partly due to the fact that breathing comfortably is very difficult right now in all ways.)

i still feel like shit- i sound even worse though. i finally got a hold of my docs & am on the only medication (pretty much) that i can take. i am doing much better & actually didn't take anything today & feel the same as being doped up yesterday. it was a long day at work just because i really wanted a nap. oh- i also pulled an abdominal muscle by coughing too hard. yeah... let's just say i actually was worried i ruptured something or displaced the placenta or something as far fetched & crazy as that. only for a few moments (okay- minutes) until she started moving around assuring me that mommy is just insane & needs to lay off the worry serum just a little. although i am still hacking away every now & then it's slowly getting better. i have my 32 week appointment on wednesday & if i am not better by then i know i'll be calling my primary doc.

the hub is rocking out & making me really proud & happy to call him the hub. he's been taking care of me (had dinner ready when i got home tonight & 3 nights last week!) he finished the trim in the nursery which means we only have to paint it & some shelves & we're done! (oh yeah- and get furniture & decor & stuff...) he's starting the kitchen drywall tomorrow & finishing it up this weekend so i can get painting. oh yeah- and my car now has a new engine!!!! we bought it a year ago with a blown motor & since it actually ran we just decided to run the motor completely into the ground before replacing it. it's loud, it's cranky, it gets terrible gas mileage, but it still hasn't died! this is why i love the subaru- it is a tank & it won't let me down. it's perfect for the fam car. well- especially with a new motor in it! tomorrow is the first day i am driving it in 2 months or so. the hub wanted to be the one to 'kill' the car since he only works 2 miles from the house & he's a mechanic so him getting stranded is not an issue. me, on the other hand, big issue.

we'll probably end up taking it off the road in 2 months while i'm on maternity leave. there's no need to pay for car insurance on two cars & the other car needs to have continuous coverage because he still has a payment on it. but if we can save $100-150 a month on the one car then it will help with staying out a full 10 weeks. which is what i think i will end up taking. i don't know that a full 12 weeks will be possible- especially since we have to finish the kitchen & the damn s.print fiasco had to be cleared up this month (don't get me started- too angry). and then there's a little cushion needed for purchasing anything we will need after the shower & whatever is left over from that should get put into savings rather than going towards another 2 weeks off. i can live with 10 weeks. anything less feels too short- hell- 12 weeks feels too short right now! but that's the way it'll have to be & i can live with that. as long as everything starts getting settled. soon!!!!

on that note- here is a picture i took while sick on the couch this weekend that i love to pieces. it's my dog (only the very best dog in the entire world) chase- and his new best friend- the wubba. (no clue why we picked that name to call this toy- it just seemed to fit)