i am going to try something new this cycle. i am going to force myself to think positive thoughts only & be calm in every aspect of my life. think it- be it kind of thing. i know how ridiculous i am going to sound & this is not to piss anyone off- but what if i am stressing myself out of a good ovulation- i mean, they have been coming later & later & i have been uber-stressed. it can't hurt- it just might help. it doesn't cost anything & reducing stress is always a good idea.
i was very upset on saturday, mildly upset yesterday. just thinking about fairness & patience & timing & heartbreak. but there is no fairness in trying to conceive your child. there is no way to lessen the wait, or decide when it is time, the only one i can have any control over is my own feelings & emotions. being a hypersensitive person with emotions that flip on like turning on a light- this will be a challenge. i can wallow in my own self-pity for days. but i won't. i will turn it off. maybe i'll even try to pretend i can forget i'm ttc. because something's gotta change & until i can get my horrible insurance to cover some testing- the only factor i can control is me.
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I'm sorry about AF. I'm inspired by your attitude though. We can't let TTC control us and our emotions, now can we!
Just relax and it will happen.
I think being positive is an excellent start. SOme times we can get very caught up and overwhelmed. I call it sensory overload. I think making a choice to try and stay positive is a great way to start things off - wishing for great and positive things to come
(((HUGS))) Sorry Jenn, I know how you feel. I know how hard it can be to put on a smiley face for everyone, and there are some days where I think "Screw them, I'll be mad if I want to" but for the most part I try to stay at least somewhat happy.
I can't picture you not being happy; you're always right there to give hugs and make someone's day...so I hope all that kindness comes back on you 10 fold and you get whatever your heart desires.
♥
(lol-Nancy)
((((Breath))))) Ok, I'm in, I'll help you...
hee hee Nancy- I ~knew~ it was going to come across like that in some way!
Thank you everyone for the kind words & wishes- I really do feel so much better just seeing the "you have comments!" It's nice to know you're understood, maybe it will help in staying "relaxed"! ;o)
Oh Jenn, you knew I couldn't help it! :) I ~puffy heart~ you! But you already know that.
I expect nothing less Nancy! ;o)
Of course I know it- I ~puffy heart~ ya right back!
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