we have a room!

just a quick post that we finally finished the nursery! well- except of course for the little touches i want to add- i need 2 frames to hang my prints & i want to get a decal with her name for over the crib, but i am picky & can't decide on the perfect one yet. all that can wait so i am not stressed about it. we got batteries in all her accessories (swing, bouncer, pack n play musical thingy) and everything is finally upstairs in her very own room!

now i am ready. of course- i want her to wait as long as possible, but i can relax into these last weeks & not feel like things are looming overhead waiting to get finished. my bags are packed and we are as ready as we'll be in a few weeks from now.



of course- if the carpal tunnel continues & my middle & ring fingers stay numb for a few more weeks i will be ready now- thank you very much. i have to say this is the only thing i will complain about. i was happy to get the morning sickness & weight gain & crazy acne, but having your hands go completely numb & tingly every night to the point that they wake you up crying & then you can't even brush your teeth, make a cup of tea or hell- wipe your freaking ass in the morning because your hands just don't work at all for about an hour after waking up- this just sucks! i can take getting up 4 times a night to pee, i don't care about snoring & being huge & uncomfortable, but the hands are killing me! okay- rant over.

here are some pics of the now pretty much finished nursery. (oh yeah- we need to get a blind too- the one we had in there broke & even though we have a sheer for it, it really needs a blind since neighbors can totally see into that window while i will be breastfeeding... oops!)

so much to do, so little time

this is probably the most boring kind of post, but i need to organize my thoughts!
today is insane & tomorrow is my shower! it's at my house but i didn't do anything except hand over names & addresses. oh yeah- and clean the shit out of my house & threaten the hub with months of sleeping in the garage if the kitchen didn't get some major attention. the good news is that the kitchen got some major attention! he had a week off between jobs (new one is 5 blocks away & pays better with a better environment! just in time!) and busted ass getting the rest of the ceiling drywall in, the rest of the drywall up on walls that were just studs for much longer than i care to admit, tearing down & rebuilding the low wall between the kitchen & the stairs so it was done properly & at a better height, spackling, priming & even got paint on the backsplash. it's not finished by any stretch of the imagination, but it's close. another couple weekends & we'll have a major renovation that has taken us 2-1/2 years done(heh- we started the kitchen reno 2 months before we started trying for a baby & 4 months before the hub opened the shop- which is why it has taken so freaking long. no money+no time+an impatient hub that started demo before we had materials purchased= living in what amounts to a squatters hovel for way too long) i will be so glad to see this done- i don't even care about the many many compromises i have made along the way. as a designer they sting occasionally, but to see a finished product i can live with not getting what i want 100%.

i cleaned the bathroom last night. i may have overdone it a bot. while my bathroom is sparkling clean, i definitely felt a contraction at the end. i've had very random braxton-hicks for the past 2 weeks or so. sometimes a full week in between, so not too many at all really. but i've had them & last night's was the strongest. so i stopped & went to sit down. but i must be nesting because i just couldn't sit still & was up & down getting bedding together for our many guests so i could make beds today. finally i had to pick up some crochet work i haven't had time to do for months just to keep me off my feet. i went to bed & had a really crappy nights sleep. tossing & turning all night long. the poor hub was up at 6 (or earlier) because of me & when he could have been very grumpy with no sleep he just said he couldn't wait to get up even more often during the night & gave me a kiss. he's really gotten much sweeter as i get closer to the end. i love it & hope it lasts!

we have my best friend from ny coming in tonight- she organized the shower; the hub's best friend from ny, his fiance & their little girl (3 months) coming in also. luckily we have my cradle & a packnplay for them but i need to go out & get cradle sheets since i don't have any yet. i also need a few essentials like milk, bread, eggs & maybe some sausage or bacon for breakfast. i can't get too much though because my mom & sis are coming tomorrow morning & they need room in the fridge for the ton & a half of food my mom made. i know she went overboard, she's been calling or e-mailing me about 3 times a week to give me status updates. now- the shower isn't a surprise, but all the details are. i never even saw an invitation & that's fine. i didn't want to have to plan my shower & i am happy that someone else did it! my mom is just really excited & food is love with her, so no matter how many times i remind her that i am not planning everything- she still has to tell me all about what she's done. it's really cute & she is just happy, so i don't mind knowing all the goodies she's making.

i still have to close on the refi today- hopefully that happens this afternoon. then while i am out i need to find a cradle sheet to fit my cradle from when i was a baby. although- if this little girl coming is as big as i think she is- she won't fit in the cradle anyway. i should really find out how much she weighs!

the floors all need to be cleaned & all the furniture dusted. i need to put the couch cover on &keep the dogs off it after that. all while working from home this morning. ack. so much to do!

oh- and i need to figure out how to paint my toes since i had gotten open toed wedges to go with my dress for tomorrow. i can't freaking reach them. the hub will not do a good job- my sister comes tomorrow. maybe i can ask her... things i never thought i would have to worry about!

busy times

* so due to spotty internet service this post has sat here for the weekend... i will attempt to get a better post together soon!

this post will be fairly boring- i promise that! we are busy trying to get the house together for saturday. it seems like no matter how much gets accomplished- the list is neverending. all the drywall is up & most likely to be spackled today. which means that tuesday we will prime & wednesday we will paint. hopefully...


monday is our 2nd childbirth class- talk about a funny experience with the hub. he was all congested last week & literally couldn't breath. not that i would have held it against him- it would probably just annoy me to have him trying to breathe with me when really in labor. i am a fan of the long slow breathing technique, but the other ones don't feel natural at all to me. i was starting to get panicky & felt like i was hyperventilating just attempting them in class. i did like seeing the different positions & ideas for what to do doing labor. i will probably bring my exercise ball with us, whether it gets used or not who knows- but it would be nice to have the option. nothing was new or earthshattering information for me, but there was stuff i wouldn't have necessarily thought of on my own while in the throes of labor. so we'll see what this week holds.


speaking of this week- ummm- 33 weeks. holy crap! seeing a new week tick by really never gets old for me (i'm a simple girl, it doesn't take much to amaze me!) but this week she is about 4 pounds or so & almost her full length she will be at birth. wow. i am going to ask the doc this week how she is lying because to me it kind of feels like she is all horizontal in there- straight across the belly. she is still very active & the neighbor was able to see some of her alienesque belly moving last night. very cool- that is my favorite part of pregnancy so far.



we have gotten rid of our cable & internet. well- they were bundled & the cable service is hideously awful- so we said no more. we are probably going to get the whole antenna/converter box thing & so far we've just been watching movies when we want something to sit in front of. it's been pretty nice. and thankfully there is a free wireless spot right outside our house (who knew!) that we can use. it's spotty & slow & pretty crappy, but it does the job for checking e-mail & updating the blog. so we may just hold off & save ourselves the $130 a month since we know it can be put to much better use elsewhere.

*as of monday the hub has restored the internet. at least the cable is gone & the bill is cut in half. i was okay with the wireless, but he got too annoyed when it kept cutting out.

i am trying to get everything into this week- ordering chairs for saturday, calling a pediatrician for a initial visit to see if we like them, 34 week appointment, cleaning the house, getting the kitchen i ready, getting places for 5 people to sleep in the house ready. it's a busy week and i am already exhausted! luckily the hub is home this week to work on the kitchen. so hopefully it will not only get done, but i won't have to be the one to do it!

it must be nesting- because i'm no susie homemaker

today was very productive. aside from a low wall- the kitchen is drywalled! the hub will be taping & spackling throughout the week so we can paint this weekend. this will make the kitchen look so much better than it has for the last.... i'm ashamed to even say how long it has taken. after we paint he'll build the low wall & if we can get to painting that for the shower- great. if not i am not going to cry over it as at least everything will be 'finished' & everyone can tell what it will eventually look like. after months of procrastination- the hub has finally gotten it into gear & i am very happy about that. of course- the motivation of knowing that i am 1000% serious when i tell him if it isn't done he is sleeping in the (unheated) garage until caiden gets here is probably good motivation!

i got a huge nesting urge today- i bought a swif.fer, which somehow led to inspiration to rip out the disgusting looking glass shower doors i hate (don't worry- the hub did the really dirty & heavy parts) & thoroughly scrub & scour the shower itself. i then installed the new curtain rod & curtain. the bathroom looks smaller (but it's pretty big to begin with) but so much cleaner & sleeker. plus i don't have to get frustrated that no matter how much i clean & scrub- the glass looks foggy & dirty immediately. now i can just throw a curtain in the wash & call it a day. plus- until we can get the money, materials & time together to put in a tub, we will be giving caiden her baths either in the kitchen sink, or in her tub in the shower- which would have been impossible with glass doors.

i also got new towels for the shower. i just want to make sure that all the little things are done so i can just tidy up & make the house look good that day. although i know that i will have tons of help- my girlfriend who is throwing the shower & my mom & sis are coming early to help & set up, plus the hub is here- i still feel like there are some things i just really want to get done. i am feeling slightly more relaxed about it though now that some real progress has happened in the kitchen.

another random thing is i think i want a hair cut- but i don't really know what to do with it. i have heavy bangs & my hair is getting longer - it's past the collarbone now. but the texture is changing a bit- it's getting wavy, not a nice pretty wavy with actual curl, but a random kink here & there kind of wavy. i may need to seek professional help, but i know that won't be happening before next month & then at that point do i just wait until after she's born? will my hair change again? part of me thinks i should do it now while i have time for me, but the nagging practical part says i should just wait until at least a month or 2 after she's here & pamper myself then.

we have friends coming over for dinner & tomorrow we start our childbirth classes. it's all getting very real & exciting. the hub is getting into it too, but we'll see how enthusiastic he is after tomorrow night.

light at the end???

i am feeling relief now. the appraiser just left & everything seemed to go really well. the kitchen is a non-issue. whew! i told him about all the new stuff we had done to the house & what we planned to do in the spring (ie- new roof).

he was a lovely gentleman who has a 2 year old daughter at home. my dogs loved following him around for the 15 minutes he was in the house- fascinated by his equipment for measuring the house. (despite the fact they have seen me 3,000 times with a tape measure!)

yesterday was bad. badder than bad. remember when i mentioned my hatred for a certain phone company? (hint- it starts with an 's' and ends with a 'print') well- it is renewed. after countless phone calls & e-mails & despite having worked out that i would pay their craptastic large bill over time (since they didn't even get me an itemized copy of it until late december...) they have sent me to collections. to an evil harassing collections that calls you multiple times a day. so now i am back to calling & e-mailing the hideous evil corporation to see why the fuck they did that? and to make them stop it. if i get the refi i'll pay them off & be done with it. if not- they have to stick with the payment plan option (which is all of 2 freaking payments!) but this is a blip. an annoyance compared with what happened next. this i can (and actually already have) deal with.

next up was crazy mil time. i can't get into details (how i wish blogger could pp certain posts!) but it was bad. long story short- i had her invited to my shower (which by the way i love my friends- more on that later, but apparently they sent out perfect invitations. i won't see one until the day- i only know time & day & place since it's at my house- otherwise i am completely out of it) which was apparently a personal attack of some sort. there were several heated e-mails with many upsetting & deliberately hurtful things sent. i responded as best i could (not being a wallflower, but not sinking to saying mean -if true- things to hurt her like she hurt me- man this belief in karma really is hard sometimes!) in the end i said what i wanted to say & left an open invitation to either come to the shower, or to visit when the babe is born. she & the hub are still not speaking- mainly because the hub is really upset by how she has dragged me into their fight & the things she has said to me. so i let her know that if that's still the case in 3 months then she can visit while he's at work. of course- my mom or sis will probably be here then too- but that's fine. i may want the moral support depending on how things progress - or don't- until then!

all in all it was a very upsetting day made just that much worse by the anxiety caused by this appraisal & so much of our future financial comfort hinging on one day. i still don't know what we are looking at, but i am feeling slightly more confident & more relaxed that we will in fact be okay.

the poor hub is a wreck today- i couldn't sleep well last night & while i can go back to sleep after tossing and turning- he can't. so my poor sleep actually wakes him up & he is stuck being awake at 3am. he has to go to work for 8am so he is pretty beat today. tonight i think we are going to just get a movie and relax at home. i think we have earned it!

on a happier note, after a vent

i have been feeling very down lately. i am bothered not so much by the thought of not having a shower thrown for me- if i really want one that badly i will just throw it my damn self. (but i think that's rather tacky- like asking for gifts so there will be none of that!) i've been bothered by the thought that i wanted everything about this pregnancy to be perfect- in that i want to live every moment like it's the only time i get it, since it may very well be. i have no idea if i will be able to get pregnant again, but i do know that after the past 2 years, one singular iui cycle, a really crappy economy & now a baby on the way- our finances will take a long time to bounce back to the point where we would even be able to consider it again. so i am assuming that this is my one & only pregnancy. i don't want to regret not doing something or feel like i missed out on the experience. that's really it more than anything.

i have to say that i am also extremely disappointed that my friend seemed to want to do this for me, she offered & asked me about it. we talked about any involvement she needed from me- that i would be willing and very able to help if needed/wanted. (even though i think it's kind of tacky to throw myself a shower- i would want to help anyone that wanted to throw me one. i know how tough it can be & i really don't want people spending money on me when i could offer my house as a location at the very least) then i never heard from her. i know my best friend here never heard from her & neither did my sister. if i was having a shower - shouldn't someone have found out addresses of where to send invitations? i know my family doesn't have the in-laws addresses. i know most of my friend's only know each other through me. i am 27 weeks. i am also an obsessive type a planner so i know what i would be doing right now to plan for someone else. and i probably would have already sent out invitations. but like i said- obsessive type a & maybe my lesson here is to let go & let other people be. because i sure won't be able to control a lot very soon & i need to learn that it's okay for things to be different from my master plan. i have always been able to be flexible, but i can't always let go of the disappointment over things not happening the way i pictured & i can forsee a lot of that coming up.

aside from all the selfish reasons i am a little down, i haven't even been able to get a hold of my friend to see if she's okay. i don't care if the events of her own life in the past few months (which have been kind of horrific) prevent her from doing this for me. i really truly understand. but it would be nice to at least know. and to know that she is okay. i feel like she is avoiding me- every phone call, every e-mail, no contact even through the networking sites.... i have always been very susceptable to feelings of abandonment. i do take things very personally in that i always look to myself first for a reason that someone may not be talking/responding to me. (does that sound conceited! believe me it's not- i always look to see how i am flawed or wrong in a situation, often inventing things that i did that the person took offense to & torturing myself over it until i finally find out that it was nothing to do with me in the first place) so i feel like if i could just talk with her- make sure everything is okay & just simply ask if she needs anything from me or if she wants to forget the whole thing- at least i will know & be able to lift off this black cloud i've been hiding under the past week or so. because my sister was here & we talked- i really just needed her to listen to get some of this out- and she said that no matter what she would make sure i got a shower- even if it was just her & me & some balloons. which is equally sad, but so sweet that she wants me to be happy too. even though it's just a stupid shower. (and it's not about gifts in the slightest. yes- we could really use some help since babies are fucking expensive, but if we got nothing we would still be okay & able to properly care for caiden, we are adults after all & if it means that i carry my debt around a few more months, then so be it. i can budget like nobodies business & i can find a bargain on anything. so i am not worried about the 'stuff' aspect. it's the warm fuzzies of having all your friends & family gather together & say 'welcome to the world' to your child. it's that one day of being told that you are wonderful because you will be 'mom'. can i get that other ways? sure i could. is the tradition important to me? of course!

okay- i am shaking myself off because i don't want this to be as whiny a post as it has already become. the happier note is that the nursery is now looking much more complete. we do still have to install trim (and by we i mean the hub), paint the floating shelves and the dresser white (the dresser is debatable- i may just keep it the way it is), and then do all the little decorative touches. but we now have a glider (thank you craigsl.ist!) which is just perfect! the carpet was freshly installed & we had a few scraps left over- hence the trash bag & padding hanging out...

i love this room. i can just walk in & feel better. it helps me to look forward to all the good things my life will soon have. and it helps me see how great things are now. the hub has labored long & hard on this room (and this house in general). i design- he executes. we make an excellent team & it makes me so proud & happy that we'll be doing this together.

thanks and more thanks

yesterday was a beautiful perfect day- after a rocky start...

the hub woke up grumpy & when one thing goes wrong in that mood- everything starts to go wrong. he has some anger issues in that he can't communicate well when angry & either needs to be left alone completely to scream & yell at whatever inanimate object is on his bad side, or he needs to get snapped out of it before it gets to that point. unfortunately- when we are rushing around trying to get to my aunt's for noon which means leaving the house by 11, snapping him out of it means starting a fight... so i walked away & continued to get myself ready. he kept up the yelling at inanimate objects thing for a while- at one point i thought he was actually hurt as i could hear him 2 floors up! nope- just a cranky bastard! thankfully- he pulled himself together, finally apologized to me, and we were off with friend in tow. an hour later than i wanted to be...


but my aunt's house at thanksgiving is one of those magical places that has actually retained the rosy glowed hue from childhood. it's changed as the cast of characters has all grown up & new ones have joined, our elders have all left. but the warmth & love hits you as soon as you walk in the door. my parents & sister were there. my cousin (who might as well be a sister) came with her family. all the cousins were there- including some from wisconsin- flying in to spend the weekend. there were two cute little dogs and lots of wonderful food. we had 23 at the table and even though my friend had never met half the people there- i ended up losing track of her at one point as she was enveloped by my family. new traditions that were started in previous years were kept up- playing rock band after dinner instead of watching football. just so you know i am an ace lead guitar player! and the hub ~stinks~ at the drums. despite the fact that he plays them for real! but he never picked up the video game concept of it.


my goddaughter was there- she is now 14 & so grown up it's scary. i don't get to see her & her little brother enough so they are always so different every time i do. her little brother is now 4 & the hub was in heaven playing with him. he got to use his patented 'wet willy' technique that he is perfecting to use on caiden. only once she can understand what it is of course. which is pretty evil of a dad to plan years in advance! but he was having a blast- i know he will be a great dad, but it's nice to see little reassurances in his interactions with kids.


there was a ton of fantastic wine & great microbrewed beer. i looked on with big sad puppy eyes & a few sniffs here & there to smell what i was missing. not that wine or beer ever really smelled good before- but it sure does now! i am debating what my 'special occasion' small glass will be now. the entire family wouldn't let me have a sip anyway- so that knocked thanksgiving out. the hub is ever vigilant about even a sip of caffeine or soda, so no christmas since it's just us for that holiday. maybe new years or our anniversary. i'll be 27-28 weeks. officially into the third trimester at that point. (or just about in) i think i'll be good then...


even if i skip it this entire pregnancy, i'm fine with that. i really don't miss drinking all that much (do i sound like a lush or what?!) sure- i liked my wine a lot when ttc & i hit the red end of a cycle. i do enjoy really good beers- we are close enough to a six pack store where you can make your own variety six pack out of any of their loose microbrews that my beer snobbery has increased tenfold. in fact- that's what i want to celebrate our daughter's birth. no champagne for me- i want a good dark belgian beer. and if i wait until after giving birth to have it- i am okay with that. i don't think it's bad to have one drink your entire pregnancy. celebrations happen, occasions get marked, a beverage gets raised in toast. but every chance i get i hold back. i don't know why- i just keep thinking- well, i don't need it for this particular occasion. i can wait for the next one. maybe it's my small sliver of if coming out. i still don't want to jinx this.


i keep thinking that someday soon this will all truly seem real. all during the day yesterday i got the pregnant girl treatment. it was my first dose of really intense, hours of attention & focus, belly rubbing & baby talk that i have had yet. of course- it's far more comfortable for me because it's all family. and i have to admit- i really fucking loved it! but it still felt surreal. like i was an actor in a play, not really the pregnant woman getting fawned over. my cousin was holding my belly & swears she felt caiden moving. i say she was way too high & it was just food in intestines. (mmmm- yummy!) so my sister took a nose dive towards us & elbowed the cousin out of the way so she could feel. i still say that 22 weeks is way to early to feel any outside movement, but it of course sparked my sister & my mom to have to hold the belly for a good ten minutes each to see if they could feel something too! and all the time i was thinking that i barely feel her consistently. and even though it makes me smile in wonder each time i do- it still doesn't quite feel real. i talk to her, i have her room started, i tell her all my plans & hopes & dreams for her. her daddy kisses her good morning through my belly. and it still doesn't feel real.


i have brief intense moments when it finally hits me. i am usually in that weird place between awake & asleep & i suddenly lose my breath completely as i truly realize that we are going to be parents. that i have our child in my belly. that in 4 short months we will be a very tired & very happy family. that despite how much we have left to do in this house & our life- we are having a daughter. the realization is so strong that i literally am left gasping for air. and then it goes again & my life continues as before. in this strange dream-state of knowing i am indeed pregnant. i am indeed feeling a new life inside me, but it's still not quite real. as real as i want it to be anyway. and that might be a very good thing if realization is still that strong & powerful for me to experience.




anyway- it's actually been a very productive week off. i got my inordinately expensive paint for the nursery. i overbought by a lot when estimating how much i would need for stripes on one wall. i should have done the color samples, but got full pints instead. idiot! so i will have tons of leftover paint. if anyone wants any- let me know. it's low voc too. i got the no-voc paint for the main color, but it didn't come in pints so i had to make do. (although it meets the requirements for a leed certified project for the paint credit- so that works for me!) my sister & brother-in-law came over on wednesday & were my fantastic work crew. i still have to do second (& some third!) coats on the walls as this is only the second coat of paint to ever go on them- there was 1930's wallcovering under the 1960's fake wood paneling we tore down & our house is from the 30's...


but here are some progress shots for you. now- my sister said she was reserving judgment until the room was all complete. but keep in mind that the crazy wall does get the changing table & two shelves on it. there will be artwork & photos on the walls & a rug is to be installed in the next couple of weeks, as well as trim & then crown moulding. so it will look less circus like...

the beginning of the day

the end of the day:

the black shelf on the wall will have a mate & both be painted white. when the tape comes off it will be white stripes between the colors. it also looks much darker in the photo. but it is a very different take on a nursery. i get that. i am a designer though & my house has been my drawing board. i wanted something modern, funky & bright. the bedding i chose is predominately white with little dots of color... here if you are interested. i think with all the white accents i want to put in- the bright colors will be welcome. and if we (or she) grows to hate it- it's only paint! easy to fix!

busy busy

we've had quite the weekend. a full day of shopping yesterday. trying to find the hub's birthday present, but couldn't. we did find the m.imi store for me though. hot damn- they're expensive in there! i really just wanted to try on the "3 months ahead of where you are now" fake bump. it was so ridiculous looking. all lumpy & wouldn't sit nicely. oh well. thankfully they have the back section with all the moth.erhood stuff. not quite as cute, but half to a quarter of the price. i got me some bonafide maternity jeans. the secret belly band or whatever kind that hike up to your boobs. they are still a dark band, but oh so comfy. the only thing that sucks is i am really between a small & a medium. so i have to get the medium which fits fine the first few hours, but then starts to sag & fall down. or at least feels like it does. i'm sure i'll get bigger & fill them out better soon, but i'll just have to make do for now.

last night we went to a party for my friend's birthday. good food & lots of friends i hadn't seen in a while. the biggest news was that i was up until 1:15. am. wow- i am such a party animal!

today we cleared out the nursery. we had this huge bookcase in there full of crap. who would have thought that 2 people in 4 years could acquire so much shit. we have an enormous pile to donate, a ridiculous pile to throw out, and a pretty decent shred pile. we filled 4 plastic bins of books & memories to save, but they will have to wait until we get a real bookcase for the living room.

we get our new nursery carpet this week, then i am off the end of november & will be at least planning the nursery & maybe even registering then. one week and 3 days to the big ultrasound.

i am now exhausted but have another 3 loads of laundry to do & change the bedsheets... then i have some drawings to review for work. joy. first though- lunch!

blurry vision

this week is down- the first week of officially being pregnant. it's still just so weird to type those words. i am starting to feel pregnant more- a little soreness in the boobs, a little bit of occasional queasiness & i experienced my first round of constipation (joy). but it still feels so unreal.
i made my first ob appointment. they won't see me before 8 weeks & then the first appointment they have that isn't just come in- see a nurse & get bloodwork taken & questions answered (which i refuse to have to go twice to see a doctor when i can just wait a few days & get it all in one shot) is september 2nd. just over a month to go. good thing i had all his practice waiting while still in the throes of trying, right?
the hub is getting very excited. he now wants to know when we can find out the sex so we can get the room together. he also wants to get the house all done & to that end we now have 100% finished floors. despite the fact that it took far far too long to get done since he absolutely would not let me help him do , i am thrilled it is now done. we need to let them cure for a day or so, but i should be back in the living room by the end of the weekend. the reason i know the hub has a fire in him now that i am pregnant- he got up as i was leaving for my final blood draw so he could brush on the final coat to get it perfect & let it dry while i was out of the house & the fumes wouldn't get to me. although there really aren't many fumes per say- it's a relatively low fume formula & the house is very well ventilated. but he wants to get everything done now & still let me relax & take it easy. i honestly don't have a choice since i keep passing out around 8 or 9 at night.
since it's getting to be that time & my eyes are feeling gritty i leave you with some photos of the beautiful floor: