so confused

i still can't quite get the hang of opk's. i test in the morning & in the evening figuring i would rather over test & see a positive than test only once a day & miss it. but tonight's opk line was pretty non existent. which means that darkest i have seen was on saturday afternoon. which if i actually did O in friday would make sense. it wasn't positive, but it was close. unless i get a real positive tomorrow- i think i have missed it. it's so frustrating. but nothing i do can change any of it.

on a bright note- i guess: tom is going to go to my doctor- he just has to sign up to have them as his primary & make the appointment. he wants a full work-up, so i am feeling pretty proud of him for even taking this step. he is a big baby when it comes to doctors. he has not been to a doctor in years- the most common reasson i hear is "i don't need a doctor to tell me i'm sick" or "i don't need to go to a doctor to know i'm going to die". it always drives me nuts, but he's a stubborn italian with an extreme fatalistic streak. he's more of a drama queen than i can be sometimes. but he is hopefully finally realizing that he needs to do this- i don't really care if he's doing it for me or for him at this point- i'm just glad he's going.

of course- he is engrossed in the vh1 show the pick.up artist right now. so he obviously needs some sort of professional help. if you've never seen it- please don't watch it, just google it & find a photo of the supposed master pick.up artist. then laugh hysterically at the thought of this guy actually attempting to get your number.