the usual

i am just waiting around again. my chart is a little funky (again) this month- i never got anything even close to a positive opk, but i started late & only took 3. according to my usual signs & temps i would put myself at cd17. ff says maybe cd18. unless of course i keep the one really weird low temp from cd20- then that's the day. i discarded it because all other signs were off for that day & i was sick & really didn't sleep. so i am officially a chart tamperer. at least for that day. i feel pretty confident about cd17- heck even day 18's timing was decent.

so now i just wait again. i should test in a week, but if i go that long i might just wait until the 15th. that is our year anniversary of the first time we had sex to "try". it's a little weird that i remember that day, but maybe not so unusual. i am trying very hard not to give in to any supposed symptoms- and believe me there is nothing i haven't felt before. but wouldn't it be such a nice way to celebrate a year of trying- with two lines & no champagne...

oh well- until next week i'm just trying to stay occupied & not think too much about it. it's not too bad during the day, but myh dreams have been all about me being pregnant. i've had 3 dreams this week with an ever increasing belly. stupid mind playing mean tricks on me!